Tomorrow is Another Day

I’m thinking it’s a sign from my constant nightmares,

that I’m suppressing my emotions and not listening to

what it is that I truly want.

I wish you didn’t call me pretty, but flawless.

I wish you didn’t call just to talk, but to hear my voice.

I wish that when we do talk, you would speak indefinitely.

I wish you would embrace me, and love my every curve and move.

I wish you would accept me, and my constant change of moods. 

I wish that you would pick me up, instead of me always having to get you.

I wish we didn’t always fight, about going nowhere.

I wish there was more to this relationship, then what we already have.

I wish we would go on more dates, and actually spend quality time together.

I wish you would lay in bed with me all day, and be lazy for once.

I wish that these feelings weren’t always on my mind.

Could you go the rest of your life without doing any drugs?
I’ve never done them before, so I’m pretty sure I can still go without them.

Do you think everyone deserves a 2nd chance?
Depending on the circumstance, but generally.
Whats bothering you right now?
The biggest issue is the fact that Criminal Minds is on and I need to study :(
Does it bother you when your friends bring up your pasts mistakes?
I like to laugh it off and pretend it doesn’t, but there are some things I still can’t shake off.
Where were you at 8 a.m?
I was walking to Yoga class. :)
Is there anyone you would seriously punch right now if you had the chance?
Haha, I could name a few.
Have you ever brushed your teeth while in the shower?
That’s literally where I always brush my teeth!
What would you change about your life right now?
HAHAH. There’s a lot of things I’d LOVE to change.
Do you regret something you did recently?
There’s actually just one thing I wish I hadn’t done. That’s it.
Do you think relationships are ever really worth it, why so?
Of course, being able to share your feelings and life with someone is impeccable.
Let go of someone you didnt want to?
Something like that.
Do you miss anyone?
More than anyone would know.
Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
No. 
What’s one thing you’re looking forward to?
Getting the hell away from this school.
Three feelings at the moment?
Comfortable, tired, and lonely.
Do you tend to make things complicated?
YES. WTF. I am cursed.
Has anyone upset you in the last week?
Of course.
When you say you don’t care, do you mean it?
Generally not actually. 
Do you currently have any bite marks or hickeys on your neck?
Nope. I’m clean!
Do you believe in the saying: What goes around, comes around?
YESYESYES.
Whats more important in a relationship, trust or happiness?
trust is what makes happiness in the relationship.
Which do you prefer eyes or lips?
EYES!
Best kind of pizza?
Stuffed meat lovers. 
Is your bedroom window open?
Yes, two out of the three are.
What is in store for your future?
I was hoping you could tell me.
Do you take care of your friends while they are sick?
HAHA. That’s how I got the nickname Momma Jess.
Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?
Sadly, no, I really enjoy talking about it.

“Remember, there isn’t a right way to respond as long as you’re true to your heart.”

I don’t think that my horoscope couldn’t have said it any better!

Feels like you made a mistake.
You made somebody’s heart break.
But now I have to let you go.
I have to let you go.

You left a stain
on every one of my good days.
But I am stronger than you know.
I have to let you go.

No one’s ever turned you over.
No one’s tried to ever let you down.
Beautiful girl— bless your heart!

I got a disease, deep inside me.
Makes me feel uneasy. 
Baby, I can’t live without you!
Tell me, what am I supposed to do about it?
Keep your distance from it,
don’t pay no attention to me.
I got a disease.

Feels like you’re making a mess.
You’re hell on wheels in a black dress.
You drove me to the fire,
and left me there to burn.

Every little thing you do is tragic.
All my life, oh!, was magic.
Beautiful girl— I can’t breathe!

I got a disease, deep inside me.
Makes me feel uneasy. 
Baby, I can’t live without you!
Tell me, what am I supposed to do about it?
Keep your distance from it,
don’t pay no attention to me.
I got a disease.

And, well, I think that I’m sick.
But leave me be while my world is coming down on me.
You taste like honey, honey.
Tell me, can I be your honey
Bee? Be strong!
Keep telling myself it that won’t take long 
Till I’m free of my disease.
Yeah, Free of my disease.
Free of my disease.
oh

I got a disease, deep inside me.
Makes me feel uneasy. 
Baby, I can’t live without you!
Tell me, what am I supposed to do about it?
Keep your distance from it,
don’t pay no attention to me.
I got a disease.

And, well, I think that I’m sick.
But leave me be while my world is coming down on me.
You taste like honey, honey.
Tell me, can I be your honey
Bee? Be strong!
Keep telling myself it that won’t take long 
Till I’m free of my disease.
Yeah, Free of my disease.
Said now, free of my disease.
oh yeah.

After spending the entire weekend with my family and friends, I thought that a night alone would be ideal. As it turns out, I’m more alone than ever and hating every minute of this. Homework comes in phases, but nothing that sustains my entire attention or needs. I’m watching P.S. I Love You, and makes me wish I wasn’t here even more than what I thought was imaginable. I just don’t want to be here anymore. I want to be with my friends and family on Easter and spend the time with people I love instead of this over working mind.

I’m sick of this fighting as much as I’m sick of my crying.

Do you enjoy it?

I sincerely don’t like you.

foolish or all-absorbing passion